Light Yagami had never been in love. Sure, he had been on dates with countless girls, but he had never been truely fixated with one person. That was, until he began work on the Kira case...

Light glanced up from where he was lying and stared at the figure tapping away in front of the computer. He had his kness bent right to his chest and was eating a strawberry meringue, loudly.

"You've been analysing that imformation for 48 hours straight, L" Light piped up suddenly.

"I know that Light-kun," was the simple answer.

Light could not help but be fasinated with L. The way he sat, ate, walked, talked... He had been observing the boy for a few days, and had come to find his
company enjoyable. At first, Light dispised the idea of being handcuffed to this freak. Now however, his feelings towards L were those of friendship.
Suddenly L stood, and strechted half-heartedly. As he stretched his arms up, Light caught a glimpse of L's flat, toned stomach. Light's eyes scanned up and
down the boy before returning his focus to the screen, his wandering eye embarrassing him. He sighed. "We don't seem to be getting anywhere in the case. It's been two weeks, criminals are still dying, and we have no new leads".

L bit into his thumbnail, the way he always did when he was deep in thought. "Don't be so discouraged Light-kun. That isn't an attitude that a great detective should have. We will catch Kira.."

Light scoffed. He reminded him of a school teacher, which was not something he wanted to think of his best friend.

Best friend? Is that really what Light thought of this freak?

Light stood, in doing so accidently brushing L's hand, ever so softly. Light flinched in reaction, but L remained motionless, entralled with the columns of data on the screen.

"I'm tired Ryuzaki. Can I go to bed now?" Light said, through a yawn.

L turned away from the screen to face Light, his dark mysterious eyes locking onto Lights. Light inhaled, unintentionally, and held his breath as he held L's gaze for what felt like an eternity. He had never looked at L as directly as this, and he observed his distinguished features. The computer was the only source of lighting in the room, and this caused an eerie glow over L's soft, pale skin. Light felt his heart quicken, though he couldn't place why.

"What's the matter Light-kun?" L's voice broke his thoughts, and he snapped back into reality. "You've gone red."

Oh god. He was blushing, Why, why was he blushing? This was so embarrassing. Light never blushed, not even the prettiest of girls could make him. So why now,
in front of L?

"I'm tired Ryuzaki. You may be an insomminac but I need my sleep in order to stay on top of the case. And since it was your idea to 'work together 24-7', you're going to have to accept that we have very different sleeping habbits." He lifted his arm, indicating the handcuffs that bound them together. "Pfft, sleeping habbits" Light chuckled, "or lack thereof in your case".

L nodded thoughtfully. "I understand. I will come to bed with you now. But don't expect me to sleep."

Light led the way to the bedroom, with L slumping behind. When he discovered that the bed was a double, he was surprised to find a sense of excitement fill
him. Light removed his jacket, shirt, and pants, then proceeded to climb into bed in his boxers. Unsurprisingly, L did not remove any clothes before climbing into the queen size bed.

"Don't you get hot?"

"Excuse me?"

"Well I mean... you're wearing a long sleeved shirt and long jeans, plus you're under two blankets. You're hot... I mean, aren't you hot?" Light felt himself blushing again, and he bit his lip to stop him cursing himself.

"Not really Light-kun. I don't normally sleep, and if I do it's not in a bed. Normally sitting in my chair while I'm working on the Kira case."

Light resisted cursing himself again when he felt sudden disapointment sweep over him. L wasn't even going to remove his shirt, let alone anything else. Why
am I feeling these strange emotions? They were all new to him. He shouldn't WANT L to take off his shirt. He's a man, just like him. And he's a recluse, a
freak. Light should be disgusted to be in bed with him, not pleased.
Light turned onto his side, facing away from L. He could hear him shuffling awkwardly behind him. When Light closed his eyes, he tried to put himself in
the right mind set. I'm here to catch Kira, that is all. But try as he might, there was only one thing on Light Yagami's mind- L.

"Are you asleep Light-kun?" L asked in a husky whisper.

Light turned over to see L sitting up with his knees drawn to his chest, holding out a bag of yellow and pink marshmallows.

"I was wondering if you wanted a marshmallow. You've hardly eaten, you know."

Light groaned in response. "It's 3AM in the morning Ryuzaki. Unlike you I eat healthy food, and at normal times."
He instantly regretted rejecting L's offer. "But thank you anyway".

L smiled, and Lights heart almost leaped out of his throat. L never smiled, his eyes were always emotionless, and he certainly had never smiled at Light
before. That was the most stunning, adorable smile I have ever seen, he thought to himself. Light continued to observe the genius boy as he dropped each marshmallow into his mouth in a rather comical manner, using only 2 fingers. His jet black bangs hung over his face, and the dim lamp beside him illuminated
his soft features. Light could feel his heart racing as he felt emotions unnknown to him rip through his body.
Could he.... no. Light squeezed his eyes shut, so tight they began to water. He tried to dissmiss his thoughts, but they kept comming back and dominating his
mind. Stop thinking, he told himself, stop thinking these impossible thoughts. You haven't. You haven't. But his heart corrected his mind, and Light realised what he was trying to deny.
Has he really fallen for L?

*  *  *

13th of Febuary

As the days, and eventually weeks went by, Light's feelings towards L did not vanish like he had hoped. Not only did they persist- they increased in intensity.

It was obvious that L only had his mind on one thing: catching Kira. However reccently Light's mind had wandered, and now the only thing he could think about
was the stange boy who had stolen his heart. It was beginning to well up inside him, all of his thoughts, feelings and stirred emotions- he wanted nothing
more than to tell L how much he loved him and utterly confess his closeted feelings.
I can't. I can never tell him.

"L..." Light began cautiously. "Have you ever.. well, been in love?"

L stopped spoon feeding himself the custard he was eating and turned to face Light, his eyes big and blinking, obviously surprised.
"Is that a joke Light-kun? Do you really think anyone would find themselves compatible enough to date me, or even like me?"

I'm compatible with you L. More than anyone else in the world. And I really like you...

"AND would any girl ever find me attractive?"

The fact L said 'girls' insted of 'people' slightly broke Light's heart.

I don't know about girls L, but me- as a man, finds you attractive. You're the most beautiful, handsome, stunning, gorgeous person I have ever seen.

"And besides, no one understands me... I wouldn't want to fall in love unless it was someone who undstood me and could relate to me." L seemed satisfied with
this answer and returned to slurrping away at his custard.

Oh L. Oh L, Ryuzaki. I understand you. Our intellect is matched. Me and you are one of a kind. There's no one more perfect for you than me, and me than you..

Light clenched his teeth to fight back the urge to cry. He had never expected love to hurt so much. The pain he felt inside at at this very moment could not be compared or rivaled.

Love me back, L. All I want is you to love me back.

"Light-Kun. I havn't slept for 8 days in a row. And now, I'm tired. Would you mind bringing the laptop to bed and running this new Kira data through the system while I sleep?"

Unable to deny his true love, Light accepted, despite being very tired himself.

The two boys lay side by side the in double bed in utter silence, the only light emmitting from the laptop on Light's side table.

"Light-Kun?" When L said his name, Light wanted melt like a popsicle. "Do you think there's a heaven?"

Light stirred uncomfortably. "0.4% chance that it exists" he joked.

L didn't laugh. "I think it would be nice if there was one, don't you think Light-kun?"

"Well... uh, I guess.."

"I bet there would be lots of cake and ice cream. And tea. And you would be there, too. Because you're a good person Light."

"Thanks Ryuzaki..."

"And if I had one massive cake.. I would cut it in half and share it with you."

"Yes, thank you L..." Light said, pretending to be sick of L's ramblings.

"You're my best friend Light-kun. And although heaven defys all logic, I hope there is one. Don't you?"

"I'm not so sure I'd get in".

It sounded as if L let out a tiny gasp. "Why not?"

"Not sure. Just a gut feeling I have." Light turned onto his side, and was met with L's massive captivating eyes. The same ones that forced Light's heart into
a frenzy when he fell in love with him. The ones that get Light every single time and make him feel like a pathetic school girl.

Oh god, his eyes. I want to tell him so badly..

L smiled sweetly at Light, his messy black hair casting shadows over his face. Light felt a dagger through his heart as he stared at the only thing he wanted in the whole world- even more than Kira. The only thing Light has ever truley cared about is L. And the only thing he wants, is the only thing he'll never get.

"Goodnight, Light-kun"

"Goodnight L"

All I want is for you to love me back.


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14th Febuary, 2:30 AM

Light sat up, as wide awake as he had been before himself and L had gone to bed. He observed L, who was in the feotal position and sucking his thumb, asleep
for once. Light had to make sure that L was very much asleep, and considering his lack of sleep the past 8 days, Light had no doubts that he would not be waking until morning.
Light looked down at L and felt pathetic when he felt tears welling in his eyes.

I won't cry. I promised myself I wouldn't cry.

Light closed his eyes, tight, trying to push back the depression that had recently engulfed him. He thought about holding L. And not just hugging him, but
holding him in the rain, their hair dreanched and clothes saturated, but careless, because they had each other. I would tell L that no matter what happens,
I'd protect him and never let anything happen to him, Light thought to himself. All he wanted to do was to kiss him passionatly then confess his undying
love. But, he knew, that would be impossible.

But after this morning you will know. You will know my feelings L. Finally, I will be telling you...

Light took out a small kitchen knife from his pocket. The blade wasn't long, but it was sharp. Light glanced down at the comatose body next to him and
whispered softly "I love you L".

With that, Light drove the knife into the flesh of his own arm. Blood came to the surface of the cut immediatly, and began dripping off his arm. Light clenched but now, he couldn't hold back.
For the first time in twelve years, Yagami Light burst into silent tears. They ran down his face the same way the blood ran off his arm. His silent tears dripped off his nose and chin, and they came continuously. He continued to carve, intricately and carefully. He let out low gasps of pain but was still very careful not to wake Ryuzaki. Blood covered his whole arm and now the blanket sorrounding him.

You will know, L. I just want you to know that I love you.

He began to feel light headed, and as the world blurred, as his tears and blood mixed, Light shed one final tear for L.

"You are my world L" he choked out croakily, but purposly quiet enough so as not to wake him.

"But I am not yours. And I-I cannot l-live with that." As Light choked out his final words, the blackness became more potent and his blood felt thicker.
Light drew one last breath and closed his eyes, untill his thoughts faded and he felt nothing.

*  *  *

14th Febuary, 9:30 AM

"Morning Light-kun" L grumbled through a yawn. He still lay in bed, facing a wall, adressing his best friend beind him. Assuming he was still asleep. L stretched and yawned again. "Wow, sleep is strange. I always have the strangest dreams. Last night, I dreamt I was being chased by a ginat doughnut, and you were there but you were Kira, but I still wanted t---- GAASSSSSSSP!!!!"

L had turned over and was faced with the most horrific sight of his entire detective life. Yagami Light, his best friend, was sitting up in bed in a pool of semi-dried blood, his eyes closed, and his body motionless.

L lay gaping, and for the first time his big black eyes were filled with emotion. Tears began to fall drop by drop, until they came in a steady stream.

Unlike Light, L did not try to fight it. Insted he allowed them to flow as he mourned.
"L-Light-Kun. W-why?.." He could not stutter any more words before he broke down. L kneed before the boy, and gently cupped Lights cold, dead face in his hands. As he held it, L felt his heart breaking into a thousand pieces, shattering. Emotions stirred through him- greif, sadness, utter distraught- and something he
couldn't place.
"Light.." L whispered in a soft, claming voice. "Oh Light, oh Light.."
L's tears had not ceased. L held Light's hand so tight his own knuckles went white. He held it and couldn't tear himself away.
"Light!" He almost screamed, but it was not in him to do it loudly.
Suddenly, something came to his attention.
Light's arm, the source of the blood..

L brushed off the dried blood flakes on Lights arm. He let out a gasp as he discovered something so moving tears began to flow more freely than they had ever before.
Carved into Light's arm, written in his own flesh, was a message:

Happy Valentines Day L

Was all it said. L made fists and cleched his teeth, tears wetting his cheeks and dripping off onto Light's mutilated arm. L's heart was made of glass, and it
was shattered. No one.. no matter what... would be able to put L's heart back together. On his knees, in a bed, in a mess of blood and tears, L bent down
and pressed his lips to Light's dead ear: "I love you too, Light-kun".